Now that I am having to put up with so much painful sexual abuse from the IdIoTTwins, it brings back decades of horrific, painful, and absurd sexual attacks in the form of “jokes” from my husband. My sister had to endure the same thing from her idiot husband. I know because we talked about everything together.
When I would be in PMS stupid remarks would be made like an idiot pubescent seeing breasts for the first time. “Me like big boobies!” Followed by a quick jab right at the nipple. If this is supposed to be some kind of complement, it isn’t. If it meant to traumatize and hurt me, then it succeeded. Or, “Finally some boobies to touch!” which is to say I didn’t have very big breasts at all. Looking back I was what you would call now athletic shape. I was athletic without the boob job which I think just makes women look like they have two buoys strapped to their chest. It doesn’t fit the body at all. But if the IdIoTTwins want big boobs they can certainly pay for the women with the biggest boobs. What I think they meant was that they personally want big breasts on their own chests. They are incestuous perverted freaks. Then they could suck each others boobs without having to beg their mommy. Back then I would be covering myself, turning away from my husband and getting on the other side of the room from him. He would slowly make his way over and start poking my breasts, turning them like knobs, and saying the most immature, sick incestuous sounding stuff like a little boy begging for sex. It was sickening. My stomach would drop. I felt violated and at the same time worried about my husband. I thought he had mental illnesses. When I got mad at him I would say he was free to leave me for a woman with big boobs or all the women in the world with big boobs, but he had to stop poking, pinching, and twisting my breasts.
That crap may be cool in a porno, but I was in my period or near it. I didn’t have the strength to fight about such nonsense. We didn’t watch pornos and I had no interest in them. I’m a real woman. If you want some prima-donna porn star then go find one. You can’t afford one, unless they are not known, but that’s not the kind of woman I wanted to be. Then the pouting, the whining, the avoiding eye contact. If I was not making eye contact while he was being a complete ass, then I didn’t get any eye contact when we could act like adults together. I didn’t care. I was sure I was right and if I couldn’t satisfy him then he could leave. My husband would get very depressed. I thought he felt bad about how he acted. I think he really did feel bad about how he was forced to act. The IdIoTTwins in retrospect tried to spin it where he was supposedly pouting because he sexual needs weren’t being met. Well. That’s what I told him straight out. I can’t meet those sexual needs if that is your needs. You have a choice.
Then life would go back to how my husband usually treated me for a while and all would seem mended. But mostly I toughed it out through the really brutal times because I love my real husband, not the blithering idiots plaguing our lives, and I believe in the Bible’s basics about marriage.
Then there was all the sex when I was raw and weak. They acted like I liked that. When that’s all you can get from your husband and you are taught to please your husband, then you just sacrifice and make do. But again, that was the IdIoTTwins trying to make me into a whore, which I was not. I like relational, loving intimacy. I have been robbed from that on a regular basis for my whole life by these IdIoTTwins.
Then they keep having various people in weird situations tell me that I like perverted stuff, that I act perverted, that if I would just relax and be nice that I would like the perverted junk. NO one in their right mind and even drugged can be nice enough or relaxed enough to have sex with blithering idiot Bozo the Clowns. They are both clowns, even though Terry takes that persona on the most to make up for this kind of sickness and perversion in him. Worse than this perversion is the fact that he thinks it is funny to torture animals by poking them in the eyes, pulling ears, feeding them stuff that makes them sick and then all the way up to torturing them to death. He thinks those “Faces of Death” videos are funny. He is seriously mentally ill. He should have been locked away and kept medicated and restrained for his entire life, but his rich family just bribes everyone, buys them, or destroys them if needed to keep Terry’s real nature hidden from everyone.
After the reveal sex became impossible. My husband could not function. I think that is from drugs and the technology these assholes have access to. Any sexual encounter made me faint which made me sick. I later found out that is supposed to be some weird way of having sex. No way. Not for me. I want to enjoy my husband, enjoy the sex, and build a relationship. I don’t want to be like some prisoner being tortured or be a torturer. That’s all sick garbage. It serves no real purpose. And I am sure the IdIoTTwins would like to see me die having sex, having a bowel movement, or in some other compromised way. That’s just how sick they are.
And then as the reveal was rolled out the IdIoTTwins were trying to make me agree to being shared between them, my husband, and another guy. No doubt they would have just gotten everyone else out of the way and then tortured me to death. They are terrified of my real personality. I really hate both of them and they know it. When they showed up in my life to pretend the whole over-the-top nonsense that they did, they also had my sister telling me constantly to be nice. They would have her tell me to be patient with people like God wanted me to be. To not speak up about what I thought was too much or not. To try to be loving so that I could save people no one else could save. It was all garbage being fed through her by Devil Worshipping Dumbass IdIoTTwins. No doubt they thought it was funny to use Christianity against me and make me put up with their disgusting stupidity. The only way I could stomach them was to think that they really were lost, pathetic, weird, sad, and completely clueless about how they came across to people. They pushed all my boundaries until I broke, but when I re-centered, I just gave up on them and went on my way. I never looked back.
It’s so stupid to see all these motorcycles around with the IdIoTTwins acting like I like motorcycles so much. I rode on a Suzuki-like motorcycle, not a Harley, with Kerry on my lunch break ONE TIME for 5 MINUTES. They have tried to turn that into some big romance.
IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME I WOULD NOT BE NICE TO THE IDIOTTWINS OR ANYONE WHO WAS LIKE THEM AT ALL. THE ONLY THING I REGRET IS BEING “NICE” AND NOT BEING LIKE I REALLY AM. I AM PLAIN SPOKEN NO-NONSENSE AND HONEST AS MUCH AS IS POSSIBLE WITH SPIES ALL AROUND ME. I HATE TERRY AND KERRY YOUNG!
I DIDN’T WANT SEX WITH BOZO THE CLOWN FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE AND I WILL NOT CHANGE NOW. GET OUT TERRY AND KERRY BOZO THE CLOWN TWINS! YOU REPULSE ME. I DON’T LIKE EITHER OF YOU. I HATE BOTH OF YOU EQUALLY!