I knew it. I tried to be nice and they completely used it against me. The asshole murderer idiot who used to be my sister’s husband when she was alive was at my nieces when I tried to take flowers to her while she was in delivery. EVERYONE was there like a goddamned intervention. This is how they try to force me to do stuff they know I don’t want to do and then say two things… 1) she was there and didn’t do anything mean so we thought she had forgiven the idiots she hates and 2) we tried to help her but there’s just no helping her. She’s hopeless. It was a trap, as usual.
My niece went into labor today. I went down and all these people were there, all reeking of colognes, perfumes, and the regular hospital smells that almost know me out, literally. I was dizzy and woozy. Then I saw her right across the hall from where Jessica had been born. I remembered my sister and all these flashback details. I almost passed out. I asked the nurses at the desk if I could take the flowers back. THE NURSES AT ST FRANCIS IN MUSKOGEE LABOR AREA WERE COMPLETE AND TOTAL BITCHES TO ME. THIS ONE LOUD MOUTHED BITCH NURSE SAID, “SHE’S JUST RIGHT THERE! YOU CAN’T EVEN CARRY THE FLOWERS DOWN THE HALL?!” AND WAS COMPLETELY BEING HORRIBLE TO ME WHILE ALL THESE NURSES WERE STANDING AROUND GOSSIPING AND THEN LAUGHING AT ME WHILE THIS BITCH SCREAMED AT ME ALL THE WAY DOWN THE HALL AS I WENT TO MY NEICES ROOM! I SAID, “I GUESS YOU COULDN’T GET OFF YOUR ASS AND DO SOME WORK.” BUT SHE COULDN’T HEAR ME OVER THE BITCH NURSES LAUGHING AT ME. THAT IS EXACTLY HOW THE TWINS SET ME UP EVERY TIME. EXACTLY. SO I WAS ALREADY HAVING FLASHBACKS OF ALL THE TIMES THEY HAVE DONE THAT TO ME WHICH IS LIKE A SMEAR THROUGH MY ENTIRE LIFE. I CANNOT THINK OF A TIME I HAVE EVER BEEN TREATED EVEN LIKE A NORMAL PERSON FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE, MUCH LESS RESPECTED IN A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. EVERY FEW WEEKS OR MONTHS THIS SHIT HAPPENS TO ME. JUST LIKE THE NEIGHBOR COMING IN MY YARD AND CUTTING MY TREE DOWN TO THE GROUND FOR NO DAMN REASON.
I KNEW IF I LOST IT THAT THEY COULD HOLD ME FOR BEING A DANGER TO MYSELF AND THEM, SO I RUSHED THROUGH EVERYTHING.
THEN…AS I WAS LEAVING THERE WAS MY SISTER’S MURDERING HUSBAND, HIS BITCH WHORE WIFE WHO WAS JUST WAITING IN THE WINGS WHEN MY SISTER WAS DYING, AND THEIR IDIOT SON. I JUST KEPT WALKING. I WAS CRYING REALLY HARD BY THE TIME I WAS MAKING IT DOWN THE HILL TO MY CAR. THERE WERE A BUNCH OF STUPID WOMEN SITTING AROUND FAKE LAUGHING REALLY LOUD LIKE THEY WERE LAUGHING AT ME.
THEN I GOT IN MY CAR AND I CUSSED EVERYONE AS LOUD AS I COULD FOR AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO. THERE’S NOTHING THEY CAN DO ABOUT WHAT I SAY IN MY CAR WITH THE WIINDOWS ROLLED UP. IT WAS VERY THERAPEUTIC. I DON’T HARDLY HAVE A VOICE NOW, BUT IT HELPED. I KEPT CRYING.
THE HARD PART WAS IT TOOK ALL I COULD DO TO CONTROL MYSELF TO NOT TEXT THE IDIOT MURDERER AND SAY, “I THOUGHT YOU DIDN’T BELIEVE IN HOSPITALS, MEDICAL INTERVENTION, PAIN MANAGEMENT OR ANY OF THAT. THAT’S WHAT YOU SAID WHEN CHRISTY WAS DYING YOU USELESS SACK OF SHIT!!! AND MRS. USELESS SACK OF SHIT WHO HURRIED THE DEATH OF MY SISTER BECAUSE IT WAS AN INCONVENIENCE TO HER SUPER-CHRISTIAN CHURCH GOING WHORE SELF!!!!!” I WAS SHAKING SO HARD TRYING NOT TO WRITE THAT. IT’S WHY I WAS SCREAMING AND DRIVING. I HAD TO KEEP MYSELF FROM TEXTING. GOD KNOWS ANYTHING IN WRITING IS LEGAL. WELL, THIS IS WRITTEN AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE BASTARD AND BITCH! AND THE ASSHOLES BITCH WHORRE MOTHER WAS THERE, TOO, OF COURSE. ALL THAT MATTERS IS HER LITTLE DICK SUCKING SON, MURDERING, PORNO LOVING DISGUSTING GUTLESS, SPINELESS COWARD THAT HE IS GETS TO GET HIS WAY…EVEN IF IT MEANS MURDERING MY SISTER. SHE WAS SUCH A BITCH MOTHER-IN-LAW! I KNOW! AND SHE REEKED OF WAY TOO MUCH PERFUME TODAY! SHE WAS DOING HER BEST FOR HER SON AS USUAL! I ALMOST PUKED WHEN I GOT NEAR HER. TOO BAD I DIDN’T THROW UP ON HER. SHE CERTAINLY IS A FAKE CHRISTIAN PUKE JUST LIKE HER CURRENT DAUGHTER IN LAW. I HATE HER AND HER SON. I HATE THEM AND THEY KNOW IT. THEY ARE TRYING TO CATCH ME AND GET ME OUT OF THE WAY. THEY ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. HER SON WAS A HORRIBLE BROTHER IN LAW TO ME. HE WAS THE WORST, LITERALLY, EVEN BEFORE HE TORTURED MY SISTER TO DEATH WITH THE IDIOTTWINS!
AND WHEN THE IDIOTTWINS SAY, “IT WAS GOD’S WILL” THEY MEAN THAT THEY ARE GODS AND IT WAS THEIR WILL.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE, KERRY AND TERRY! EVEN IF I HAVE TO NOT BE AROUND MY NEICES AT ALL EVER AGAIN, THEN THAT’S JUST HOW IT WILL HAVE TO BE. YOU ARE GETTING OUT OF MY LIFE, KERRY AND TERRY.