My real husband is home for a few weeks before he has to go back to Alaska. He has had to spend his whole time avoiding me like the plague. He’s sick and has to sleep. He’s too sick to have me near him in bed. He has to run errands he decided to do himself while I stay at home. It just goes on and on and on.
Then the IdIoTTwins have him taking his socks off in this 30 degree weather and pointing his feet all over the place while I try to watch tv. They use barefoot because they pretend that I have some sexual fetish with feet and that one of them actually used his big toe to have sex with me. It’s sickening and they know it makes me sick. They are seriously mentally ill – the whole IdIoTFamily.
They keep pointing with James’ feet to things in shows that indicate that I am their wife and am misbehaving. They pointed to that crazy Sophie woman in “Marvelous Mrs. Maisel”, like she was their mom talking to me when she was talking to the Susie character. Basically in the scene the diva was telling Susie she wanted someone who would be passionate about her like Susie was over her friend/client. It’s like that crazy bitch is trying to say she wants me to be passionate about her like I was about Christy. No one will ever be passionate about that cold-blooded bitch like I was about Christy because Christy was actually loving and kind. She had a REAL personality, not a fake persona. Christy opened her heart to people, while their bitch mom closes her heart to everyone and everything. I passionately hate her guts. I passionately want her dead and her IdIoTTWin offspring. If she’s trying to hint that they are a disappointment, everyone knows that. They are pathetic, whiney, entitled pissants who will never be passionate about anything except being catered to and everyone making their life as easy as possible. She raised the idiots. It’s her fault they are spineless, gutless idiots.
I guess the IdIoTTwins think mommy bought them a wife when she took me in under whatever program this is. I guarantee you that it was not part of the deal. I am sure I am some military experiment. I probably supposed to be treated in a very specific way that keeps all the brainwashing in tact and makes me function at optimal levels. But they have played their stupid little pranks on me for my entire life. Their idea of a prank is torturing Christy to death in front of my while she died of cancer. They are cruel, unfeeling monsters who have cost me every single thing I have ever loved or wanted in life. They keep making my life shrink down to just them and I still won’t accept them.
They put stupid stuff in the game like, “Lunchbox Wife1” and “Miss Mess E” and have it put right where I have to see it. They are idiots. I don’t have any idea what the hell that means. They keep sending these nonsensical code messages to me that I don’t understand at all and then they say, “You know what I mean. You’re just lying. You’re just playing like you don’t know.” I have no idea – sincerely – I have NO idea what in the hell they are talking about. They are idiots. I spend most of my day mouthing, “Go f*** your brother and your mom and shut the F*** UP!” “Quit sending me stupid messages. I do not care. I don’t care how you feel, what your opinions are about anything, how you are doing, what you want…I DO NOT CARE.” I don’t try to figure out their stupid messages because I do not care. It’s just an annoyance I have to live with like a fly forever buzzing in my face. It’s horrible.
I want REAL time with my REAL husband, James. I only have one husband. I have only had one husband. We have been married 30 years. How in the hell can even an idiot twist that and pretend I would rather be with the IdIoTTwins who are torturing me? They go around saying I like pain. They are abusers. They are real abusive to me and I need help. I am living in domestic hell with IdIoTTwins I don’t even really know. I knew them sporadically for a couple of years in 1999 and 2000. That was 19 and 20 years ago now. I do not want those bastards. I didn’t want them then and I damn sure don’t want the fools now that they are bald with saggy balls and abusive anger issues. If I ever end up with them by some twist of fate, please rescue me or kill me. Do not make me have to have a relationship with either or both IdIoTTwins and their mom. Seriously. Kill me if it comes to that. Sometimes I want to kill myself now just for having to live with them abusing me constantly from the shadows.
They do stuff like when I turn over in bed to face James they make a pain in my upper arm that feels like it broke. I have a white flash in my mind and I can’t see anything for a little bit. I have instant tears. I can’t breath. Finally I start breathing and then my vision comes back blurry and then focuses. The pain goes on aching, but there is not a wound. There’s no broken arm. No one can see how these bastards abuse me. It is enough to make you want to kill yourself. Decade after decade with no chance of escaping them in sight….
Knowing that everything that would make me happy will be kept from me. And at the same time they expect me to flatter them and kiss their asses. I will not do it. They might as well kill me now. I am basically in prison with visits from James. And they aren’t even conjugal visits. I’m basically in solitary because I won’t apologize, I won’t act like the IdIoTTwins and their mom are great, and I will not act the way they want me to. I am going to retain myself. That’s all I have anymore. They may abuse me relentlessly, but at least I am doing what I think is right. I am not a puppet to those IdIoTTwins. They act like I am trying to use them as a puppet. I am not trying to use them at all. I want them completely gone from my life. I wish they were never born and their mom was never born. That’s how far removed I want them from me. I hate their guts and I wish them every bad thing that could happen to people. I am not asking them to do or act like anything. I just want them to leave me alone. And when I say that I don’t mean I want to be completely alone with no one or nothing except the abuse of the IdIoTTwins. I mean I want them removed from my life like they never existed. I want them to have NO power in my life, my husband’s life, our marriage, our nieces lives. I want to be able to have friends and go places without being stalked constantly and harassed within the technical limits of the law. I want all harassment and abuse to end, not just letter of the law, but the spirit of the law. I want to be free.
I want to be free to be married to James and enjoy him as a husband. I want to be free of the IdIoTTwins, like parasites eradicated from my home. I want to have freedom to write, read what I want, do my arts and crafts, and not have to care what the IdIoTTwins and their IdIoTMom would think about it. I don’t want to have to care if I am making the IdIoTFamily mad or not. I want them gone. I don’t want them to get any information from me or about me at all. I don’t want any communication in any form FROM them!
I WANT TO BE FREE!