These IdIoTTwins are really outdoing themselves. Huge, flying roaches. I am not talking about it. Shakes, uncontrollable crying, screaming, almost passed out, and almost sprayed a whole huge can of Raid all over the house. Then the cat started throwing up.
I am not showering regularly. I can’t sleep hardly. I am sleeping fully dressed so if I run screaming from the house at least I will be dressed. I’m not showering regularly because I don’t want to see one of the gross monsters and start running and screaming. I can’t figure out how to shower with my clothes on.
Today I was so furious about all this crap after I cleaned up the stupid roach. I sprayed it’s dead body with enough Raid to kill a roach playing dead, but probably actually dead, but not enough to make my poor cat puke. I then used the adrenaline to take a chance on a shower. To distract myself from thinking of the IdIoTTwins laughing at me and planning more stupidity, such as…”She’s scared of roaches. Let’s scare her with roaches.” “Oh Brother, you are a genius!” “I know.” Both of them are saying all this at exactly the same time. Then they get all turned on thinking about how mean and genius they are. They start screwing each other. They say and do each other exactly the same way. They are both bald all over. More fun for the slippery pushing. They are both completely incest-gay. That is disgusting. But they act like they are geniuses who invented it. They say to each other, “Oh Brother, that’s exactly how I like it,” at the same time. Then they reply to each other, “I know.” Then they grunt and moan for a while exactly the same. And then they both finish thinking that was the greatest sex that could ever happen on the earth. And it was awkward, bald, white, white, white, pink, white stiff sex, but they think it is the greatest. They think they are the greatest together and apart. Well, apart in the sense of when they aren’t having sex.
The IdIoTTwins, who are the monster with two backs.
And when the adrenaline started to wear off…I thought about my sister dying in all the horrifying pain. And then I started talking about what I was visualizing about the IdIoTTwins out loud.
I have put out roach traps, sprayed roach spray, and still these huge roaches. The traps are the biggest ones I can get. They are supposed to take the stuff back to their nest and kill the nest. They are perfect disgusting examples of exactly what these IdIoTTwins are in my life.
Ironically I am watching the PBS series “Victoria”. The term gaslighting comes from something that happened to her in her palace. The house steward wanted gas lighting put in the palace. It started stirring up rats as they were tearing through the walls. The queen was terrified of rats. So the servants made her an amazing birthday cake. The people who didn’t want the gas light put a rat on her cake and freaked her out. Then they had an excuse to stop having the gas lighting put in. Her enemies said that it proved that she was too fragile and crazy to rule. To gaslight someone is to make people believe they are crazy when they are not.
My entire life has been like this. They kept the queen Victoria isolated until she became queen and then tried to use her like a puppet. I have no idea what I am in all this, but it is clear to me that my opinions mean something to someone. I have always been isolated. All kinds of lies have always been circulated around me, even in grade school. And I am always supposed to make friends to be a support system, but for more reasons than I could possibly name, I am never allowed to really have a friend. Even my own husband is kept away from me because we get along well. My husband is my best friend. My real husband. Not these IdIoTTwins pretending they have been involved behind the scenes in any serious capacity. They are always around me and they place horrible people around me. When I refuse them, awful things, like the gaslighting, happens to me.
At least the royal families know what is expected of them. But no one has ever told me what place I have in this world. I am supposedly able to live my life, but nothing but blocks have been put in the way my entire life. Every direction I go in someone destroys it. This latest bizarre behavior of the psychiatrists down here is a perfect example. I have several diagnoses of PTSD, but that last psyche had down hysteria or mania, something like that, and she would not accept the diagnoses of several other professional psychiatrists and therapists. The IdIoTTwins want me off of disability so they can get me back in the workplace where they can torture me until I am comatose again. Even trying to work out my health in disability is being attacked. I try to go to the right kinds of doctors, psychiatrists, and they will not treat me for what I actually have. That’s the kind of influence these awful IdIoTTwins have.
I am not a royal subject! I want these horrible IdIoTTwins out of my life. I am sick of being a poor person being directed and attacked as if I was some royal person. I have no life because of these fools.
I AM NOT GOING BACK TO ALASKA! I AM NOT GOING BACK SO THE IDIOTTWINS CAN CONTROL EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE WITH TORTURE AND MISERY. MY HUSBAND AND I DO NOT GET TO TALK OPENLY WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER, MUCH LESS GET TO ACTUALLY LIVE FREELY TOGETHER. THEY TELL HIM EVERY WORD HE IS TO SAY AND EACH THING HE IS TO DO. I AM JUST AN AUDIENCE TO MY OWN LIFE, WHILE THE IDIOTTWINS WASTE IT AWAY WITH PERFORMANCES THAT ARE INSULTING, ARROGANT, AND STUPID.
GO SCREW EACH OTHER AND QUIT SCREWING MY LIFE, YOU IDIOTTWINS.